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I WILL have God or nothing.
I will not accept that which you offer.
I will not seek help from the world, for it passes and has no strength; nor from ambition, for it cannot satisfy; nor from money, for no man has that to sell which I desire.
I have beheld the Truth, and I will not forget it.
I have heard the promise of my Lord, and I will trust my all to it.
You afflict me, but you will not capture my heart.
You are many now, but you will become few. You seem strong, but your strength is already passing away. You are God’s enemies, liars against the Truth, and I am girded With God’s strength to master and subdue you. I will not cease from this battle till I have used you that you will never raise your heads from the dust to threaten me again.
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O GOD!
Help me to give battle to the Enemy, and cease not; but ever to keep my heart in peace.
Help me to be the servant of my fellow servants, and to find in this servitude infinite freedom.
Help me to turn away from the semblance of beauty Which lies about me, and to seek in my heart the eternal beauty.
Help me to pass beyond love and hate that in self-abandonment I may cast myself at the feet of the Lord of Joy. Amen.
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KEEP Thou, O God, the door of my heart that no evil thought proceed from it ; and guard my lips that they utter no uncharitable word.
Teach me to look for the good in others that I may rejoice in it; and for the evil in myself that I may amend it.
Watch over my actions that I do no injustice, nor cause unhappiness to any one.
Divest me of pride that I may count myselfless than any other, and may become the servant of all for love of Thee, my Lord.
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DEAR God of Splendour, Whose light is greater than my darkness, and Whose love is stronger than my loneliness, end forever with one shaft from the Bow of Thy Glory this night of error wherein I wander and am lost.
Light in my heart the fires of love, O God, that being delivered from all self—centred desire I may love Thee for Thine own sole sake Without hope of reward here or hereafter, or thought of any heaven save this enraptured abandonment of love for Thee.
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MAKE my heart, O God, as this unshadowed mountain lake that sets its face forever toward heaven, and in its calm depths reflects the peace of Thy remote vast worlds of light.
